I wonder

I wonder if the dreaming is worth it
If hope is not a drowning man's wish
for more then just a shore
I wonder if the flowers care that I walk by
on my way to some vague promise I signed
with my words

The silence of my phone
Reminding me, I am alone
Yet another ciggerette
Yet another regret

What gets me, I will never know
the why of wither I stay
or go
when sleep is really
the only peace